Todays poem

Hey what do you know

Im smiling with a glow

Whats goin on you ask

Ill tell you its not much a task

Just met the one who spoke to my heart

Who made me whole when I was apart

The one who won me over inspite of me

he cut away all complications you see

He treats me like I'm a woman, a princess

Makes me feel beautiful, to him I'm priceless

We make each other fall deeper into our love

Trust me, this is love created by the One above

Whispering the need forever

Never to leave just never

A surest security

True embrace finally

Every moment cherished

Life full and nourished

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My true colour

My true color is Orange!

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One Stormy Moment 2 Years Ago

Its been quiet a few nights where its been really hard for me to sleep.... thoughts within me are just pounding at my door.. They scream for me to take the time and actually think about them.. Sometime ago I had a fight... I fought with someone I dedicated my life to.. someone who is more than just someone... He created me and I have His breath, the breath of life within me.... I was angry with Him .. angry for not letting things go my way... There are just some moments when you feel like you have lost everything and life is never going to be the same... well the truth I found is life will never be the same and I did loose something but not everything... I thought strength was found within yourself.. But the truth is God provides you with a little less within yourself so you dont stop depending on Him... He provides strength in many different ways.. He did give me that much I needed.. when i almost went to the pits He lifted me.. Thank you so much...

2 years back I lost something really precious... Something I will never have again... A friendship that was unique and a sister I am proud I had.. I miss her so much.. 2 years have gone sooo fast it seems like only yesterday that she was here .. laughin like a hyena giving me the most genuine and warm hugs I ever got from anyone... I don't regret losing her because I'm thankful that I had her in my life... we meet so many people everyday we hardly get to know them truly.. I'm glad that when our paths met we actually joined hands and walked the journey of life together for some time... I feel priviledged to be one who knew her deeply.. Someone whom she considered her - Chadi Buddy (lol)... Seems like only yesterday I called her and asked her to meet up with me... I don't regret anything more than I regret not having to tell her that I love her very much.. and that I'm sorry to have not let her known that she was precious to me.. I live with the hope that she already knew.. I stopped blaming myself for it.. cause if I did know what was going to happen I would've done all I could to let her know... I would've told her what she meant to me.. I would have one all those things we loved doing together.. laugh like no one was around.. talk our hearts out like there was no tomorrow.. Some people are priviledged enough to get that one last time with the one they love before that loved one passes away from this life.. I didn't get that chance... I have learnt one lesson in life through this.. is always make the people special to you truly know and feel they mean a lot to you.. smother them with love.. whats in it for you to loose? you'd only gain and prevent yourself from making the mistake I did... Love with no bounds.. smile with no end... cause you never know when bad days hit hard...

I have no complains.. But to be honest it still hurts... Everyday I still think about her.. Sometimes I forget about what happened 2 years ago.. close my eyes and think of those days waiting for her to come from her lectures... hanging out from the train like we used to or just searching for her in the carrom room.... so many memories.. She maybe asleep in the depths below but in memories she is alive... I can only thank God for letting me have her in my life.. though short a while.. I will cherish it forever... I also learnt to cherish every moment every day .. you never know when your time is up... you may never do all the things you planned to do.. so live for today... tomorrow may never come.... I get up everyday thanking God that I'm still here.. I lack a friend only to understand how loneliness feels .. all so that I can reach out to someone who is lonely.. someone who lost something too...

Like I said I was angry with God for quiet sometime... but then I realised there is a bigger picture to life... Life doesn't just move on like a drag it changes.... you learn new things from different experiences... good and bad... Thank God for both... cause the good ones give you something to smile about and the bad just makes you stronger... I was running away from God.. running far... only to realise that I needed Him real bad... now I hang on to Him tighter...

Numbing Down

I have nothing left in me to be.
To react, to cry, to be angry.
You ask me if I am upset,
Scared to say what I'll regret.
I don't know if I'm allowed this rage.
Can I erase this chapter of my page?
Have I made the same mistake again?
Was I to naive to dream of summer rain?
Is happiness just a state of mind,
Absolutely not meant for my kind?
Is trust and love only for the dictionary?
Am I to take it as a joy ride, not seriously?
I guess theres no place for me to be alive
Being numb, a stone, emotionless I'll thrive
Like a parasite feeding on my own emotions I'll grow
Storms tearing me part by part, only a smile to show
Being real has no joy, it has absolutely no reward,
Doesn't get you the prize, you'll not progress forward.

Storms Within

Piercing dagger
Heart's pieces
Messy scatter
Promise denied
Hope killed
Faith confused
Violent cutting
Damaged emotion
Sinking feeling
Beauty fading
Confidence dead
Restless insatbility
Lost smile
Silent tears
Artificial smile
Undiscovered person
Trapped forever

Wake up oh my generation but dont go back to sleep!!

Hmm lets see what did i do today... i was a really good girl!!.. Was at home today.. Working on my project on the recent doctors strike in Maharashtra.. If its something worth while i will post it on the blog... n yeah gotto prepare for my exams.. The last one for this year atleast.. I am graduating.. Yippeee!! I am a big girl now.. Lol... I am really bored today.. and i really wanted to go for a movie or something.. But nah not happening got work today...

Relevance of the doctor’s strike- my life now revolves around it.. Got to find the essence of the strike.. Was it ethical for the doctors to strike?.. Was it fair for the Government to take advantage and not give the doctors a good working environment?.. I mean doesn’t every individual deserve respect?.. I am trying not to take sides.. I am not supposed to for my project.. But I am definitely on the side of the doctors.. The Government is playing big bully.. Gees its getting to me i have to do something about it... cant wait to be a journalist have so much pent up inside me.. Can’t wait to write.. To write as a weapon for society.. Violence is definitely not the answer... but we sure need a revolution.. in every area of our lives.. Education, governance, defence, corporations, business... all of us need one..
But not one like in Rang De Basanti.. Where the generation only awakens to fall back to sleep while their lovers watched planes fly over their heads somewhere in scenic rural Punjab.. Guys .. All you Indians (me included) we do have to do something..
I am not saying this because of some mild euphoric revolutionary ideas birthed in me because of the doctor’s strike.. This whole semester been dealing with crime, page three, communalism and trade unions.. Trust me most of us don't have the real picture.. We have only the tip of the iceberg...
So start a revolution with the need to know... the need to know more than what the media says.. More than what your parents, teachers, elders, opinion makers say.. C’mon rise up people.. Not only the young.. The old.. Not only women but men.. Not only guys but girls.. Not only the marginalized the rich... c’mon everybody who lives and breathes wake up...
I had this inside me a lot.. Just had to let it out.. I don’t think I am wrong to believe this.. I don’t think idealism should die.. It drives one towards perfection.. Maybe we will never reach perfection but atleast we will reach closer to it.... pull up your socks people.. Its time...

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hey .. just got a cooment saing im gay... just to make all things clear im a girl.. in love with a guy.. soo tht dont make me gay in neway.. just clarifying... whoever katie's sister is...

The Memorable

3 wonderful months ..a milestone of precious moments..

I was thinking how I would put words down,
Of how you made me smile from a frown,
They say it’s too soon to say,
But with you I know its okay.
Cause in your eyes I see something really deep,
I’ve never seen before beyond measure and leap.
I have no words to express all I feel inside,
You fill me with overwhelming joy and pride.

What have you done to me?
Make me smile, make me feel free.
I never can and never will regret,
The first smile, the first time we met.
The first phone call, the first kiss,
The first everything spells bliss.
In just 3 days you gave me what no one did in years,
You heard me out, made me smile and bore my tears.
In time, God sent, you came and changed my life,
When I almost gave up, fed up of all the strife.

You make me feel alive again,
As I dance I feel the rain,
Clouds pave my way as I walk,
I glow with love for you as we talk.
I want to keep knowing you,
You make me feel brand new.
I just want to love you more than I have ever loved anyone,
Give you life's brightness and bring you the rays of the sun.

Hey guys... Im really overwhelmed at this moment... a year back i was going through the fire for quiet sometime... lost myself... lived only in my dreams cos reality seemed too painful... till 3 months back on Christmas day i bumped into the most wonderful person i ever could know in my life.... Never met anyone like him... never could stop smiling after i met him for the first time.. no one made me feel like that ever... n now its been just 3 months but... gees its like the best three months i ever had.. He has become my strength n i face everyday knowin that everythin will be ok... knowin theres hope and life can be beautiful... all those bad days, months and years well i dont mind them anymore.. cause i had the best 3 months with a someone who actually loves me and knows that he does... people say im crazy .. they say its just 3 months.. but my mom who i believe has better experience than anyone of these advisors says that 3 months, 3 years, decades or centuries dont make the difference.. its knowing that you want to be with someone for sure that does ... cause once you make up your mind .. and i mean the two people in the relationship make up their mind ... noone or nothing can come in the way
the best thing was the fact that from the very start as friends we decided not to hide anything and be honest with each other... n im glad we didnt hide anything.. Im glad we shared the same feelings.. this never happened to me before.. i never knew this actually could ever happen... the reason for me being so open and writing this blog... is to tell everyone never give up ... dont... jus dont... be strong.. and if strength fails you hope and have faith keep going be persistent.. theres something better ....
hope the best 4 everyone... wishing everyone Gods choicest blessings and loads of joy and happiness
love,
Ritz


PS: It didn't work but God had a better plan in mind than I had for myself.. The guy mentioned here remains my friend. Well it wasn't meant to be, but I thank God that I have managed to move on.. so here's to my future cheers and God bless.

 

Commercialised arent we?

Im tired of broken hearts and giggling dolls,
Commercialised sodas and shopping malls
Why do all things turn so artificial?
People have turned so superficial.
I want the land without boundaries to go free,
The breeze in my face the stars to clearly see.
My eyes almost blind with the worthless dizzle-dazzle,
It is all about the money, leading to loads of hassle.
Where did all the priceless things go?
Did mastercard hoard it to the depths below?
Its almost out of reach, nobody cares.
In silence none say a word, no one dares,
To go against the flow,
Where one can really grow,
And not get lost in the crowd,
Have their own voice aloud.
Everyone's losing their face,
Getting lost in meaningless space
Who you really are is a mystery,
You are lost in glamorous fantasy.
Do you need titles to appreciate who you are?
Do you need others to worship you as a star?
Cant you just be yourself, set yourself free
Messed up and afraid, you cant face reality

Condition of my heart

No more silence,
No more violence,
You opened my heart,
Understood me part by part,
Feelin free,
Heaven n ecstacy.

PS: Dedicated to you my darling who makes me smile everyday.. thanking God im alive to see you.. to meet you.. to know you